.music = love.

so im really happy today because there was a moment in mads when we were all just hanging around the piano playing, singing, and having piano wars….haha and I finally felt like i was at peace and at home. i was like “this is where im supposed to be”. it was the greatest feeling everrr. it was like when i first found drama club and my drama family. i can tell its going to be a really great year. :)

two words. jason mraz. ahhhhhh! i so cannot wait to see his lovely face tonight.

so im mentally preparing myself for a week long bus trip with senior citizens to vermont lol. should be quite interesting….

life is great :)

there are many ppl i wish would txt or call me to hang out but im okay with the few that do. plus my cousin is here and she is amazing!!!! i just love being outside and my hair is getting so blonde! what more could i ask for? lol wow i am rambling….

so im really excited because my life is getting back on track. my best guy friend doesnt hate me anymore and things are lookin up. plus, im looking forward to mission trip and being gone for a week (i leave tomorrow). im not bringing my phone because i want to be in the moment. from now on my philosophy is to enjoy every fricken moment of life because for too long i have been blind to it; letting it pass me by. now im ready to accept it and make the most of it. no more living from a distance where i feel removed and third person in every situation. im diving in, embracing, and living. :)

it feels like some aspects of my world have been crashing down on me. People i thought were near and dear to me always second guessing and pointing fingers like they have never done anything wrong in their lives. we are all human and we all make mistakes. i am coming to accept the fact that im not perfect nor will i ever be. instead im choosing to focus on the positive and the many people i do have that truly care about me. screw that few that hate me. id take the many that dont over them any day. for too long i have been overpreoccupied with pleasing others and now im looking after myself. yes i made mistakes. i admit that. im truly sorry. now lets move on, forgive, and live.

take a look around wipe the cloudy haze off your eyes stop your bitchin and realize the situation propaganda in our own homes morals discarded, garbage down the drain what stocks the fridge now? sex, booze, drugs, hate polluting the youth of tomorrow conditioned to accept trained to depict this picture we see society in turmoil everyone crying for money and freedom, well we are our own wardens prisoners in the hell we create